Its time to pick a side!

During an incredible life-changing 24+ weeks of participating in the Master Key Mastermind Alliance exercises I have been learning, growing, observing, being silent, changing and searching.

Unfortunately (or fortunately) now I know there is a world beyond anything I could have wished for.  I know that there is the possibility of living the kind of life that can affect others in the most magnificent way.  To be in harmony with myself, my purpose, and my surroundings is too exciting to turn away from.

I have had a taste of how bright my light is.  I have seen the possibilities.  I know the truth. So that leaves me with this:  It’s Time to Pick a Side, You Choose!!!  cropped-forest-w-two-paths.jpgI can continue along my original path where everything is familiar and comfortable OR I can get outside my comfort zone, face my fears, apply what I know, continue to discover my own authentic self and commense to living my purpose.

“Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither hath it entered into the heart of man” the splendors which exist for those who find themselves in the Promised Land.  They have crossed the river of judgement and have arrived at the point of discrimination between the true and the false, and have found that all they ever willed or dreamed, was but a faint concept of the dazzling reality.  Charles Haanel

I will continue along this journey as long as it takes, I choose LIFE!  I CAN’T WAIT!!!

Be in Love with what your Life can Become, Carrie!

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Week #23 Vulnerability

I recently re-examined a familiar word.  Vulnerability.  Mark and Davene, http://www.worldslaziestnetworker.com, touched on this subject several times throughout the MasterKey course but I’m not sure if I ever really took the time to think about how much of a part it plays in my everyday choices.  Most of us look at vulnerability as endearing in others but a weakness in ourselves.  We somehow feel very comfortable with people when they show that they are vulnerable but feel “exposed” when we show them ours. hiding If I “hide out” and conform then no one will have anything to talk about. Continue reading

Week #22A Let go of the Banana!

Well, that was an interesting exercise.  3 FULL DAYS OF SILENCE.  Yikes, I had no idea how many things I used to distract myself from…well…myself.  I kept having to reinforce: “am I doing this to avoid the silence?”  First I proceeded to clean and straighten everything.  Then I had an incredibly strong urge to go buy something, anything.  Then I desperately needed some good food. Well there it is, my first lesson in the silence.  These are my true tools of avoidance. This knowledge is powerful.  I’m looking forward to being able to recognize through this behavior when I am avoiding the truth.  No excuses….now, I am aware.

I have to admit that I was a little excited to not have to deal with anything for a few days but I can see why this is not a mainstream activity. It felt very strange to sit by myself in a quite room for hours (I think I permanently “freaked out” my husband) , try to separate myself from everyone (Feels like I’m missing out), and avoid life for 3 days (I carried a card that stated: “I’m sorry I can’t talk to you right now. I took a vow of silence for 3 days.  Call me on Sunday”).

But I kept at it and found an interesting story….my story.  The story that I have been holding onto.  I hadn’t let go of the “banana”. I am The quiet sufferer!  If I manage to live the life of my dreams I will lose my identity!  Besides, I was telling myself, rich people are greedy, selfish and conceded anyway….thats not you.  By wanting more your just being unappreciative of all the gifts you already have.

Seriously, what kind of bologna was I handing myself.  I can see where it might have come from but now that I know the truth…I know better.  I’m not going to say that I am able to instantly rid myself of this faulty thinking, after all it did take 50 yrs to develop, but I certainly do recognize the power behind re-writing my story.  So, if my past story reads: Poor Carrie, she tries so hard and is such a nice person but she just can’t get ahead.   Then my present story read:  Wow, look at Carrie, everyone she touches turns to gold.  All of a sudden she is so financially abundant and she is still such a nice person.

Be in Love with what your Life can Become, Carrie

Week #22 In the Silence

This weeks assignment for our MKMMA course is a quite the doozy.

REMAIN SILENT FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS!!!!silence is golden

As my husband rejoices, I’m thinking Wait??  What??  Can I watch TV?…..No!  Can I read?…..No! Can I listen to audio/radio?…..No!  Is he kidding?…..No!  What do I do about WORK?…..Take a vacation day! Wait?? What?? But I have deadlines?…Push them back!   Continue reading

Week #21 Luck? No, Daily Perception of Life!

Through this Master Key MasterMind Alliance course I have learned so much about myself.  I have grown emotionally, intellectually and spiritually by leaps and bounds.  Even when I am at my most frustrated point I know I can never go back to who I was before. Whether I am in the midst of triumph or failure I know inside I will never stop putting into practice the tools and knowledge acquired through this journey of a lifetime.  I see everything differently now, with a new perspective.  I have become the observer of my thoughts and behaviors. I strive daily to look within for everything I need.  Yesterday I remembered something very interesting.

Currently, I am struggling with remaining in that positive frame of mind.  Now I know full well that I become what I think about all day long.  Especially when I am attaching feeling to those thoughts.  My confusion comes when I can’t change my own mind and choose different thoughts.  What is that all about.  If I know that it is detrimental to my dreams, if I recognize it is just an addiction to old peptides, if I have the tools necessary to help me……why is it so hard.

Then I remember something interesting I haven’t thought of in years.  To give you some background as a young lady I was the happiest, most carefree person ever.  I loved everyone no matter who they were, I found the good in every unfortunate situation, I laughed all the time, was always smiling and above all I used to say regularly…I must be one of the luckiest people around because everything always works out for me…no matter what.

Sometime during my freshman year in high school I remember trying to attract some sympathy from my friends by going to school sad, on purpose.  I was going to not be my talkative self, I was going to have a frown on my face until someone asked me what was wrong.  Craziness, nothing was wrong, what was that?  Anyway, the point to my story is that within minutes, and I mean minutes, of being at school I would remember “Oh yeah I was gonna be sad today”  I was addicted to happiness so strongly that I couldn’t even fake being sad.

As life got complicated and heavy I lost that everything is always ok feeling somewhere along the way.  I remember thinking that I must have used up all my luck because nothing was working out for me anymore.  I remember thinking: Ok, now how to regain control and fill up my lucky cup again.  Well guess what MKMMA is that answer.  Now it is up to me to use all the knowledge and tools provided to become the channel through which “luck” will once again fill my world no matter how long it takes.  My hope is that just like muscle has memory I hope my old, old peptides recognize me when I come calling.

Be in Love with what your Life can Become, Carrie P

Week #20 Master Key System Ch. 20

Chapter 20 of the Master Key System is one of my favorite chapters.  It so plainly and boldly puts in writing the simple truth of all that we have been learning.  “The spirit of you is…you.  The one and only condition of spiritual power is USE or RECOGNITION.” Charles Haanel  This principle is changeless.  It is ONLY through us that spiritual power has life.

Quite frankly, this principle is always in play and we are always creating life in some fashion or another.  We can ignore the simple fact that a power greater than we have ever imagined is manifesting through us 24/7 but that ignorance, lack of knowledge, doesn’t stop it.  It all depends on what you CHOOSE to do with it.

Imagination is the greatest tool of this unseen force.  It has been said many times “If only we could live in our imagination”  The art of visualizing perfection is, in my opinion, the most powerful tool we have.  To become the channel through which the life you desire will manifest by “living it” through your imagination is, by far, the most life-changing realization of all time.

“…your business in life is to understand and command these invisible forces instead of letting them command and rule you.”  “Every time you think you start a train of causation which will create a condition in strict accordance with the quality of the thought which originated it”  Charles Haanel

THE TRUTH!

Be in Love with what you Life can Become, Carrie Poulsen

Week #19

To be honest with all, I have taken a step backwards lately.  I know I will never give up but do feel like I need to take a step back and find……something.  I am changing…..but the world around me is not.  Things seemed to be going south, quickly.  I am improving as a person, in mind and spirit but no advancements in finance or health.  I began to question everything.  There has to be some disconnect that I am not aware of.

As I have stated previously, I am very well-balanced.  I don’t have huge things to overcome. Why is this so hard for me.  Why can I not convince myself I can be successful and live the life of my dreams.  Am I over-analyzing? Am I trying too hard? Why can’t I get this???

I begin to see the light, so to speak, and feel this giddy crazy happiness that makes me want to dance and hug everyone I know. Then without warning my fears and doubts come streaming back as if to say “oh no you don’t.  Thats not really who you are.  Who are you trying to kid. No-ones that happy.  People are going to think your crazy. Your not going to change your finances. Look at your history. Stop expecting the extrodinary”.

I want to leave a legacy that inspires people to search for their own inner happiness….How is that suppose to happen if I can’t even hold on to mine!!!!  AARRRGGGHHHH!!!

I have trouble with people who are always complaining.  I have great advice for people who are always looking at the negative. I try to RUN from Debbie Downers. And look at what I’m doing.

I know the remedy for all that I am going through.  I just can’t understand what is stopping me from applying the knowledge.  I know full well it is a choice.  I thought I had made that choice but possibly its time to revisit my decision.

No worries, just venting, I will not quit untill the Happiness I know is inside prevails.

Week #18 My Obituary

Last weeks class requirement was to read the obituaries in the local newspaper.  And of course not so ironically our new chapter starting this week was Og Mandino’s scroll “I will live this day as if it is my last”  Now the real irony starts.  My Aunt Joan passed this Monday, Feb. 3th and today is my birthday, Feb 6th.  Joan was a very high profile dignitary in Washington, DC and Minneapolis, Minn so the “writing” of her life where all over the media. Continue reading

Week #17 HJ “What are you pretending not to know?”

colorful brain scanWOW……that question!!!  What are you pretending not to know??  As soon as I realized that I was having trouble understanding the question I knew I was in for a ride. The questions and projects that, at first, seem like a foreign language are usually the ones that provide me with the biggest opportunity for growth.  Think about it……How would YOU answer this question? Continue reading